the mountain goats make music for people who spent their entire lives convinced they would die before they were 17 except now they’re 26 and they have a job and friends and hobbies and they’re not sure what they’re meant to do now that they’ve survived
“I don’t think that I accepted that I wasn’t gonna die young until I was 26 or 27. I really don’t think I fully…when I was 14, 15, 16, 17–I mean I knew as sure as I know that I am wearing green shoes that I was going to die before much happened. It was a certainty for me. And I had shaken off the directly suicidal urge by the time I was 21 or 22, but I still was pretty sure I was going to die pretty young, it really felt like an inevitability. It takes a long time to realize no, you’ve changed…if you shared those feelings with people at some point you go, ‘well, I guess we’re going to stick around.’ And it’s a funky thing to admit because there’s a part of your inner younger self that kind of judges you for that.”
you will probably not look like a skinny white anime girl when you transition you will likely look like someone’s mom and you need to realize how swag this is
I saw a picture of my mom last week and did a double take because we both realized how similar we look. skinny white anime girls are not real women but your mom is. I promise you look like a real woman
i once was telling a friend how i wanted to wear a sun dress but when i wore a sun dress i didn’t feel the way wearing a sundress looks, and how disappointing that was, because i don’t want to look the way i do in a sundress, which is like a masculine person in feminine clothing
and my friend, bless her, said “wanting to look like the girls in the ads and then feeling like less of a woman because you don’t is a very real woman thing to feel, actually”
One day i realized i looked like my mom, fat and warm and tacky as hell, and i felt deeply happy.
just thinking of how our meaning or purpose in life is merely to experience. eating an orange segment, hoping for snow, being in love, returning over and over to one painting, stepping outside for the full moon, submersion in water, having a favourite colour, knowing beauty, feeling alone, feeling connected, feeling longing… it is enough.
on the other hand there are some characters that i KNOW in my heart are not cis but heres the thing . THEY wouldnโt know. they would have no idea. or theyโre not acknowledging it. i love trans headcanons as much as the next guy but angel devil from chainsaw man does not know that heโs not cis because all angel devil is thinking about is that heโs got a job to do and heโd rather not be doing it but ah well its that or being killed. oh well
theres also some characters that if you took them out for drinks for like 2 hours and talked to them they would realize very quickly they arent cis. but the resources simply dont exist in the situation they are in. do you understand my vision
“ohh what if my kid starts identifying as a CAT because of the trans agenda we have to prote—” well they’ve always done that. do you remember the psychological effects of h2o on young girls. of warrior cats on autistic children. i believed i was a demigod because of percy jackson. twilight came out and kids were telling their friends they were secretly vampires. this is just a thing kids do. worry less
